“My favorite friends are Hippies” 

My friend HippieMan added me to a closed group on Facebook. It’s a community of hippies sharing pictures, music and friendship. I’ve come across some of the coolest people who are kind, caring and funny. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt a connection to others with shared ideas and morals.  I’m genuinely grateful for the hippie generation and how it’s continued throughout the years. We need people who care about humankind and our planet.  We need both for the human race to not become extinct in our children’s and their children’s future.  All life matters not just different ethic groups. World peace is something our violent prone generation thinks is impossible and I pity those that live that way.  I’m hoping for a future where more hippies are still among the world’s population and their voices will be strong.  Thanks my friend HippieMan for showing me there’s still hope out there for peace, love and happiness.

+‡•PeaceLoveMusic•‡+                         +‡•by FrostyGurl•‡+ 

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“I am enough”

Today I am enough. I feel      honored by Gods gift of       Grace for another day to live    clean and sober. I’m surrounded by beauty at all times because wherever I look, it’s right in front of me. Especially when I’m with my family, my loved ones and the friends I now have in my life that make me laugh at myself and at the world so it’s a better place to be in. Today I am enough. I didn’t want to have any kind of feelings about anything or anyone in this life. If someone tried to get me to talk about my feelings I’d make sure I’d be gone from them immediately. These days I don’t have to use drugs or alcohol to escape or numb myself from feeling any emotions or from trying to deal with other people’s  feelings that seemed too dramatic and I couldnt   understand why they had      them. Today I am enough. I actually know what it means to exist not really living, but now my heart is full of feelings and emotions that I don’t put a name on them anymore.  I’m grateful today that I can feel emotions in everyday life. In the past, I made plenty of unforgettable mistakes and hurt the people who have always loved me when I couldn’t love myself. Today I am enough.  I’m accepting of the realities of my life and learning to live life on life’s terms. My past bipolar thinking and how negative I’d react to ordinary things when I was having an episode was feeding off my addictive nature. Most days seem so much simpler to deal with and find some kind of enjoyment. I came too close to giving up to the chaotic thoughts rambling around my mind just for the silence I’d finally get. I choose to find a way to live with my issues and still be happy about what life is offering to me because I should’ve died more than once. Today I am enough. Not knowing that I could learn to think, correctly or live with bipolar tendencies and knowing things  are going to be okay. Those crazy thoughts still whisper in my ears, but I’ve been working on tuning out the static of conversations. I’m the one in my family that completely admits and owns up to my kind of crazy, which is acceptable these days and it works for me. I still struggle daily not to listen to my thinking because I can’t trust myself most of the time. That’s why I like trying new meetings and hearing different kinds of suggestions that my sponsor gives me to help me get through one of my struggles. Today I am enough. Sometimes I’ll remember a quote or just a little something I heard from a few days before at a meeting and it’s usually exactly what I need to hear. Best of all  I’ve seen the love, trust and respect light up my two son’s eyes when we’re all together. Today I am enough.


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Peace, Love & Music 

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Finding my Carefree

Carefree

Carefree has different definitions depending on how the word is used by an individual. Carefree, to me, is a state of mind. When my thoughts are a tangled web of too much information to figure out how to simply use what I need and let the rest of it go.  I have to slow down my thinking and my reactions within myself. In a carefree moment my mind is quiet of my rambling thoughts and I’m in this moment of time. I don’t worry about something that happened yesterday or what tomorrow may bring. I’m just being peaceful in the now. Yesterday is over and tomorrow might not even come for me. While living in the now I’m not afraid, angry, sad or worried about things I can’t control. I’m just enjoying my time right now and feeling carefree. I do daily meditation to achieve living only in today. When I do obtain this goal I’m happy and enthusiastic about my life today. Everyday life can be carefree when you have learned to stay in the now. Right now is beautifully carefree.