“I am enough”

Today I am enough. I feel      honored by Gods gift of       Grace for another day to live    clean and sober. I’m surrounded by beauty at all times because wherever I look, it’s right in front of me. Especially when I’m with my family, my loved ones and the friends I now have in my life that make me laugh at myself and at the world so it’s a better place to be in. Today I am enough. I didn’t want to have any kind of feelings about anything or anyone in this life. If someone tried to get me to talk about my feelings I’d make sure I’d be gone from them immediately. These days I don’t have to use drugs or alcohol to escape or numb myself from feeling any emotions or from trying to deal with other people’s  feelings that seemed too dramatic and I couldnt   understand why they had      them. Today I am enough. I actually know what it means to exist not really living, but now my heart is full of feelings and emotions that I don’t put a name on them anymore.  I’m grateful today that I can feel emotions in everyday life. In the past, I made plenty of unforgettable mistakes and hurt the people who have always loved me when I couldn’t love myself. Today I am enough.  I’m accepting of the realities of my life and learning to live life on life’s terms. My past bipolar thinking and how negative I’d react to ordinary things when I was having an episode was feeding off my addictive nature. Most days seem so much simpler to deal with and find some kind of enjoyment. I came too close to giving up to the chaotic thoughts rambling around my mind just for the silence I’d finally get. I choose to find a way to live with my issues and still be happy about what life is offering to me because I should’ve died more than once. Today I am enough. Not knowing that I could learn to think, correctly or live with bipolar tendencies and knowing things  are going to be okay. Those crazy thoughts still whisper in my ears, but I’ve been working on tuning out the static of conversations. I’m the one in my family that completely admits and owns up to my kind of crazy, which is acceptable these days and it works for me. I still struggle daily not to listen to my thinking because I can’t trust myself most of the time. That’s why I like trying new meetings and hearing different kinds of suggestions that my sponsor gives me to help me get through one of my struggles. Today I am enough. Sometimes I’ll remember a quote or just a little something I heard from a few days before at a meeting and it’s usually exactly what I need to hear. Best of all  I’ve seen the love, trust and respect light up my two son’s eyes when we’re all together. Today I am enough.


Peace, Love & Music 

#warriorwithwings #cleanandserene 

‘Family Matters of the Heart’

My Mom 

“So how long will you need to be going to your meetings” 


“Well Mom I’m thinking I’ll always need to go to them, like 4-5 a week if I can get to them”

My Mom

“Well okay, you don’t have to be a smart ass about it”


“I come by my smart ass attitude honestly” 

My Mom

“Touche!! Well you got me there”


*I just laugh at my crazy Mom*

“Chaotic Ramblings by FrostyGurl”

I’m FrostyGurl and I’ve been writing in my first blog for a few weeks now.The majority of my writing has been about my journey through addiction recovery and becoming a better person than I was the day before. ‘I’m my own discovery in with my recovery’. It is a writing of ‘Peace, Love & Music’ and being a ‘Hippie Chic’. I’ve written once of my brother Dale, I’m 13 months & 8 days older than him, that has Cerebral Palsy. My ‘Bubby’ is the best man I have ever known in my lifetime. He’s taught me many life lessons that have made me a better sister, daughter, Mom and all around person. He’s my hero and fiercely champions over my protection. I’ve got two sons ‘Bubba’ is 19 and ‘Bratboy’ is 18. They’re becoming more independent, hard working and trustworthy young men daily. They’re also brave, kind hearted and extremely funny guys to be around. They don’t need me like they did when they were my little guys. I’m suffering terribly from empty nest syndrome!! I love all live music. Local bands, concerts and music festivals. I prefer outdoor venues for my favorite musicians and bands. My taste in music is eclectic and way out there. Metallica,  The Doors, Johnny Cash, Seether, Blind Melon, Miranda Lambert and her Pistol Annie’s, Motley Crüe, Joan Jett,  Adam Levine of Maroon 5, Nickelback, Rod Stewart,  Marilyn Manson, Patsy Cline, numerous 80’s bands, etc. I could go on and on. The most rewarding part of my sobriety is becoming best friends with my Mom, we enjoy each others company and hang out. She’s he most important part of my support system with my recovery. She makes sure I get to my meetings as often as possible.                                             FrostyGurl≈ 

#JustforToday          #KeepitSimple #MeetingMakersMakeIt  #HangWithTheWinnersToWin #OneDayataTime          #EasyDoesIt